| Nara Shikamaru ( @ 2006-01-08 23:13:00 |
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| Current music: | "Getting Away With Murder" by Papa Roach |
I don't know if I can make it...
I wake up feeling like a punching bag. Christ I think I look like one. *Shakes head* Between getting yelled at by the old man and the shrew I couldn't handle myself. I lost my head. I lost my will. I'm the coward. I hadn't planned on going to this blasted party, or to even bother showing up intoxicated. However I did, and I screwed up.
I have nothing....
I lost my friends....
I fucked myself over...
I created this mess...but now I have to take it like a man....
I don't know what else to tell you. Apparently I'm the biggest asshole on the planet that you would willingly pulverize to the ground again if I came near you. I'm sorry. I never slept with Ino. I can't say it's just the alcohol's fault...because I should have never been drinking in the first place. Don't blame yourself. Don't blame Ino. I know you hate me now, but just listen to me and believe me when I say I'm sorry.
Don't worry that kiss was nothing short of a drunken mind gone crazy. It doesn't excuse it. Just as nothing excuses my behavior. I don't want to be the cause of fucking things up with you and Chouji. As much as I didn't know what to think of you two together....I shouldn't bring you both down in my misery.
I'm sorry.....
I guess I have to thank you this time...for staying. You didn't have to...but you did. I don't like being like this. I woke up this morning realizing I didn't know who I was...
I don't know if I'll be okay. I don't know what to do...but I will try...
Papa Roach - Getting Away With Murder
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
What creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishment
And you're the master
And I am waiting for disaster
[Chorus]
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
Getting away with murder
It isn't possible
To never tell the truth
But the reality is I'm getting away with murder
(Getting away, Getting away, Getting away)
I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
And I don't need to
Because I'm getting away with murder
[Chorus]
Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
What creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishment
And you're the master
And I am craving this disaster